Q & A
the Young TS
Your letters - Melanie's
A Reader Asks...
Does the taking of
estrogen really change one's thinking and perceptions this profoundly?
As such then women take in life with a rather different perspective of
I have all these
questions in my mind on this; since your course here is something I am
thinking of pursuing. If I were to become a woman, then I might expect
to see and experience things in very different ways. Do you experience
sex in very different ways; from both the emotional and physical point
Yes. Orgasm is less intense, but the
build up to it is more sustained, and in fact more enjoyable than the
completion of the event. Also, the whole soul opens up during
lovemaking, so that there is an almost religious experience of the heart
when with someone you truly love.
When you wake up in the
morning is there right from the start a difference in feeling, or in
how you say taste your morning coffee or see the sunrise, than there
was before the Sex R surgery?
I can't say that things look
different by shape, but the colors do look different. Most importantly,
my perceptions are different so where I focus, how things are related,
and what is emphasized is quite unlike what it was before. In other
words, the world looks more or less the same but does not feel so.
Do you see the way in
which people interact with each other in different ways?
Yes, there is a great shift as to how
I am "tuned" and "attuned." I am now quite aware of
my subtleties that previously escaped me.
For that matter how do you
socially interact with women now that is different than in the ways
that you did before. I see that women are much more expressive toward
each other, while men tend to be, at least in our culture, far more
reserved. Did this change for you? Did you find yourself suddenly
able, or more able, to express yourself to women than you could
Yes and no. I can express my
emotional self more fully, both with men and women. I no longer feel I
must uphold a "control" position or joust for status. But,
over a third of a century of living in a male role has established a
more logical bent than virtually any other woman I know. So, I tend to
find men insensitive, and women shallow in conversation. My solution is
to share my feelings with women and my logic with men. Then,
occasionally, I can reverse that, and when I do, I become vulnerable
with men, and commanding of women. The key is to let it happen by
itself, when the time is right, based on intuition not intention. Then,
the psychic potential is diffused in synch with the needs of the soul.
Most importantly, are
you overall happier now than you were before?
Changing my sex did not make me
happier. But, it did clear the way for me to find happiness. I am now in
love with a wonderful woman who is also post-op: something I would not
even consider in the past. But love found me. The reason it did was
because I had opened up as a person as a result of being physically and
The important issue here is to find
love. I can imagine (from the perspective of who I am today) that there
may be other paths than sex change to open oneself. But for me, perhaps
this was the only path. No matter how one feels about being a woman,
that is never enough reason to have surgery. Still, it what drives most
everyone who takes that path. But that is not really the issue. The
issue is happiness itself, and surgery will not provide that but may
remove the obstacles that have prevented it.
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